Greetings from Bumblef*ck! You heard right, I am currently in the land of cows, cornstalks, and roadkill. Here's what's been happening:

Monday was my last day at work. I was really supposed to end work on Friday, but I've been so sick that Daddy called up the camp office and said he didn't want me to work anymore. So they let me off early. I'm glad to be out of there but I'm really going to miss my girls. On my last day, some of them were in this water ballet show for swimming class. I stood out in the drizzling rain to watch them in the outdoor pool. The song they played was like, "Who can say where life will lead us? Only time..." or something along those lines. I nearly cried my eyes out. I will miss them all so much, and I may never see them again.

Anyway, to continue, on Tuesday Steph, Preston, and I hung out and then went to rent a movie. While we were there we saw Preston's friend Evan, who thinks I'm incredibly hot. *waves banner* We rented "Clockwork Orange", which was really bizarre but a good movie overall.

Wednesday we went to Steph's grandmother's pool house and had a little going away party for me and Steph since I was to leave for Bumble and she's going to college on the 23rd. It was lots of fun. We showed Preston "The Meaning of Life", and I think he really liked it. Then we had our sorrowful goodbyes and I went home.

Thursday I was supposed to take the train up here, but the scheduling got mixed up, so Daddy picked me up on Friday instead. And here I am. The mountains here are really beautiful, and there are lots of deer. At night there are more stars than I even knew existed, more than I can imagine. And for the most part it's very quiet here, except at night when the bugs are all making loud chirping noises.

The main reason I came here, aside from being with my family, is to get away from everyone for a while and think. I finally stood up to Ben #2 and he apologized for being such a jerk to me this summer. He actually cares about me a lot, but he gets carried away and since I usually don't say anything he doesn't realize how much he hurts my feelings sometimes. But he's been a lot better to me lately. He found out the number here from my grandmother and called me yesterday to tell me how much he misses me. The thing is, he and Preston both care about me a lot, and they are giving me the time up here to think about what I want to do in our whole mixed-up triangle. The decision probably seems obvious to everyone, except to me. The truth is, I'm reluctant to hurt either of them, and I like them both so much that I don't know what to do. But here in the mountains, with so much peace and quiet, I should be able to get my head together. That is, if I don't lose it first.

"Do a little dance!"

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