So much to write, so little energy...

Daddy and Mandy have moved back to Bumble into Mandy's parents' house. I'm glad. Smelton royally sucked.

Sean came and visted us over spring break and helped us move. My family loves him. I'm unquestionably falling for him.

So far I have not slept in my bed in my dorm since I got back from break because for the past two nights I have been attempting to help Ben write essays. I'm completely drained, and he's only written the first page of one essay. He has three due by tomorrow, each four pages long. I'm expecting a visit from him sooner or later.

Steph has broken up with Dave. I figured it would happen sometime, I just didn't know when. Anyhow, he reacted like a total jerk. That's boys for you.

Speaking of jerks, I talked to Jon today. Just kidding, I'm really not mad at him anymore. And I realized he was right, I never really loved him. As the French say, c'est la vie.

Today was long, in spite of the fact that I skipped math class because I never know what the hell is going on in there anyway. Lab consisted of 2 1/2 hours of mixing chemicals and watching them turn pretty colors. Since I had a little money left over from buying subway tokens yesterday, I decided to splurge and buy myself some green tea. I'm becoming a bit of a green tea addict- it's easier on the insides than soda but it still gives you that caffeine rush. Plus it's supposed to prevent cancer or something. Anyway, I went into the grocery store with my $2.35 and stared in awe of all the wonderful things that I can't afford. I looked at all these beautiful fruits and veggies and candy and sushi and face soaps, and I nearly cried. A couple of months ago I could've treated myself to a coconut or some peach face scrub. Being poor sucks. I decided to head to Wawa.

On my way out an old guy held the door open for me and asked me if I had any spare change to buy some food. I looked down at my fistful of nickels and quarters and thus began my 5 second moral dilemma. Part of me said, "You only have $2.35." The other part said, "Green tea is not vital to your survival."

I gave him 50 cents.

Next I made the trek over to Wawa to buy myself some cheap, fake green tea.

Then I headed over to the garden behind the biology labs to sit by the pond and watch the turtles sit still and sun themselves. I sat on a bench enoying my fake tea, and I let my mind wander. Unsurprisingly, it kept wandering to the same thing- Sean.

And now I'm sitting in my dorm waiting for Ben to call me back or for me to get up the desire to get food. And that was my day.

"Unless he's a real jerk or a crybaby, you'll remain friends." -Nada Surf

"What the lover seeks is the possibilty of return, the strange heart beating under every stone." -Sarah Manguso

"Do a little dance!"

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